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10 November 2012 @ 01:57 pm
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04 August 2012 @ 03:04 pm
It's come to my attention that I really don't blog enough around here. I'm a bit too ADD for lj and my text posts are usually limited to a few lines on tumblr. This is all irl stuff, so feel free to skip. Nothing that interesting. The only non-personal news I've got is that I'm working on my BBB art assignment. Slow going so far. :\

I'm going back to school pretty soon and, subsequently, the pre-back to school jitters are here. I may get to take my car up, which would probably make all the difference between a good year and the misery that was last year. Work is gonna let out pretty soon too, which thank god, because let me tell you, lifeguarding a bunch of squealing kids all day long in the heat that has been this summer is not my idea of a good time anymore. I literally can't take it anymore.

On a totally different note, this is just something I really need to get off my chest.

I have some pretty intense jealousy issues. I’m…not proud of them at all. I get pretty nasty when it gets out of hand; I lash out at people, I’m mean and rude, and it literally churns my stomach to have to hear about them, etc. I really sicken myself sometimes, and I wish I could change it or make it go away, but that fucking jealousy is always there. There are these people that are luckier or more talented or pretty much just all-around better than me and I just make myself sick. I've always wanted to be someone that others can look up to and rely on, but I don't think I'll ever be that awesome kind of person. I'm just delusional.
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20 July 2012 @ 08:31 pm
I'm so upset that stereomer deleted her journal. ;-; I'm currently mourning the loss of her two asshole!Frank memes, which were quite literally my favorite fandom works ever. Just last month I was rereading them while chilling in my hotel room in France. To top it off, saint_sorrows seems to have cleared off as well. :( WHERE ARE YOU ALL DISAPPEARING TO?

*sigh* I don't think I can ever read another piece of fanfic without saving a copy of it for fear of it being deleted. ;~;
Current Mood: discontentdiscontent
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24 June 2012 @ 01:03 am
Title: Landing a Mile High.
Author: [info]cheerfortyranny.
Pairing: Frank/Mikey.
Rating: M.
Summary:Mikey and Frank don't go anywhere without a suitcase full of sex toys and a fully-stocked first aid kit.
Warning: severe lack of porn despite the discussion of various sex toys.
Author's Notes: Done for this prompt at bandom_meme on DW. Sorry for the lack of porn. :P

Cross-posted to AO3.

I can hear the vibrator going off in the bag and I’m pretty sure the disinfectant spray exploded while we were on the plane.Collapse )
Current Mood: geeky
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20 June 2012 @ 12:50 am
So I've been reading a couple of fics that were written for zombiebang. I read pretty much everything that gets posted to AO3, so these were no exception.

...Except I'm not sure they're too conducive to my mental health. Ha. When I was a kid, I was utterly terrified of zombies. It started with Scooby-Doo on Zombie Island and continued with this motherfucker. Much as they scared me, I guess I was a little masochistic and I would just keep watching them. It got to the point where I would take hour long showers because I was convinced that zombies couldn't come near water. XD However, according to Scooby, that is untrue.

Anyway, it really sucks because A) I can't resist temptation and I will likely continue to torture myself with these fics and B) they're very well written! The first one actually had a sex scene that has already cemented itself as one of my favorites. But I always feel so lousy after reading them (though the one I just read now was softened by the Spongebob I have running in the back ground.) They leave me feeling just plain unnerved, which might just be a compliment to the writer, actually. They leave me feeling paranoid and edgy and kind of anxious which is really fucking weird. I've never read fanfic that got me this worked up.

...Well, worked up in the bad way. ;D

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18 June 2012 @ 09:36 pm
I think it's about time I start posting regularly and what better way to start than with bandombigbang! Just sent in my art for BBB a few minutes ago. I'm a little embarrassed to admit it's kind of rough looking and I still had two other pieces I was going to add, but I probably only have enough time to squeeze in one more, if that. My trip to France kind of set me behind schedule, but I'm so excited for posting to start! Once BBB is out of the way, I can finally get started on the very numerous projects I've been putting off for much too long. I'll be sure to link them here. :)

So...comment? I wonder if anyone's out there.
Current Music: Welcome to the Jungle - Guns N' Roses
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Title: We've Got Forever Slipping Through Our Hands.
Author: [info]cheerfortyranny.
Pairing: Frank/Gerard.
Rating: PG.
Summary: Gerard's skills as a baker turn out to be more practical than Frank thought. A Hunger Games fusion.
Warning: implied minor character deaths.
Author's Notes: I'm creating art for a Hunger Games crossover fic for bandombigbang & I loved it so much that I decided to dabble with THG myself. :D I haven't read beyond the first book though. :P Title take from Between Two Points by The Glitch Mob ft. Swan.
Cross-posted to AO3.
Disclaimer: I own no one. None of this happened.

Yeah, tangled hair is gonna be the worst of my problems when we get out of here.Collapse )
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12 May 2012 @ 06:22 pm
Just claimed my story & I couldn't be more excited! I picked The Hunger Games fusion & omfg I'm so excited to start drawing!
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